Gautama Buddha's personality (3) The Will to the Truth
Because of his father's care, Gatama Buddha seemed to be happy, but actually his situations were not so stable. Since his young age he was so seriously eager to know whether there existed really the Truth, or not in the world, and he thought that if the truth really existed in the world, he wanted to grasp the Truth by himself exsactly. Therefore even though he got married and had got a son, he was always suffered from the worry whether he should become a monk, or not. Gautama Buddha was not free to go to the town because of the father's order, but one day he tried to get out of the castle. First he tried to get out from the east gate, but he met a person, who was a so seriously aged man. Therefore he wanted to get out through the south gate, but he met a person, who was seriously ill, and so he wanted to get out through the west gate, but he met a procession of a funeral ceremony. Therefore he wanted to get out the castle through the north gate, and then he could look at a monk, who was walking serenely and quietly, and looking at the monk Gautama Buddha was attracted so much harder to a monk's life.